Lately I’ve been complaining about how unhappy I am with how I look and feel.  I’ve been making tones of excuses and I’ve been letting myself get away with them, which isn’t like me at all.

It seems like every week I say; “this is the week I start getting back to my old self” and then either don’t follow through or fall off the wagon after a short period of time.  Well enough is enough and today I promise you that this is the last time you will hear this from me because I’ve had an epiphany.

Last week I started playing beach volleyball for the first time this summer and when all the other guys playing were able to take their shirts off when it got warm, I on the other hand could not.  I was, for the first time in a very long time, extremely self-conscience and embarrassed of how I looked and because of this, I didn’t want to take my shirt off.

Not wanting to take my shirt off at the beach brought back a lot of old feelings that I hadn’t had in over 4 years.  I had worked so hard and eaten so well and trained so hard to no have these feelings and I’m upset that they’re back and I’m upset that I let myself get to this point.

I’m not writing this post to tell you my sob story or I’m not trying to get sympathy or have you feel bad for me. I’m writing this post to let you know that I’m pissed off and that I’m going to take how I feel and I’m going to use it as motivation and get myself back to where I’m happy to be me again.

I’m tired of making excuses! I’m done making excuses! I’m tired of disappointing myself by not following through with what I say I’m going to do and I’m done feeling like I did before I lost my weight…

Starting RIGHT NOW, I’m getting back to the Scott that I want to be.


    • Thanks Katy! I’m in a bad place when it comes to this and I just want to feel like me again! I’m ready to get back to being Scott!

  1. You did it once – you can do it again! People screw up, but success is really about getting back on that horse every single time. Your posts keep me motivated on my own weight loss challenge. Us Haligonians are rooting for ya!

    • Thanks Chris! I KNOW I can do it, I just have to stop making excuses and stop feeling sorry for myself and get my sorry ass in gear. Yesterday was day 1 and I don’t plan on stopping from there!

      Thanks for the support!

  2. Keep it up buddy. YOU’VE GOT THIS! You taught me how to get on track – and you have our support, NOW DO IT! No excuses!!!

    • Thanks buddy! I’m tired of complaining and feeling sorry for myself. It takes more effort to make excuses than it does to actually do something about it!

  3. Funny how Summer clothes do that for you eh? Oddly enough my epiphany struck yesterday and I went to the gym for the first time in six weeks because I’m tired of using my back injury as a crutch. I saw a photo of myself in my sports bra from last year and was totally crushed by how I look now. 🙁

    You can do it Scott! and so can I! 🙂

  4. Great post Scott!

    I was the same way last summer, and it took a tearful phone conversation with my mother to realize that I needed to get back “on the wagon”.

    I had moved to Alberta and but on a few lbs in the process. There was a lot of feeling that it wasn’t fair. It wasn’t fair that other girls could drink/eat whatever they wanted, lie on the beach all day, and stay stick-thin. It made me so angry that I worked my ass off for 2 hours a day, ate very nutritiously and still had – for lack of a better word – jiggly bits (Thank-you Bridget Jones).

    We have all been there feeling the same things you’re feeling… i.e. the thought of wearing a bikini to a public beach is terrifying to me. Please know that you have all the support in the world.

    Looking forward to seeing #happyscott again sometime soon.


  5. I can relate so much with this. I’d rather run in the heat in a sweaty shirt than take mine off right now, and I hate that. My goal is to feel comfortable running shirtless by my August race. You’ll do it because you’re one tough cookie.

    • Good luck Evan! You can do it buddy! (Although I make fun of people who run with their shirt off, no matter how good of shape they’re in!)

  6. I know that feeling all too well! I finally got fed up with my weight/appearance right after Christmas and figured “I had better do this now while I am still in my 20s before my metabolism really starts to go down hill!” So I started going to the gym & working out w/ my aunt/trainer 5 days a week for about 2 hours each day and eating a ton better. Even lost almost 25 lbs, then came about mid-March, I started going into some funk b/c I had to leave my fave job for one that would pay my bills & in my depression started back to the old me. Well, I started back early last week and after a painful 9lb gain back, took about 5 more back off. So I hear your pain man! Sorry this is so long too.

    • Thanks for sharing! I’m glad to hear that you’re back at it!! I put on about 12 lbs trying to pack and move across the country. I used that as my main excuse for the longest time, but no more!

      • That was my excuse for so long too. I moved, I want to party and eat with my friends, blah blah blah. Hello 15 pounds. No more excuses!!

  7. yeeeeaaaahhh I totally get ya … although I haven’t announced it on my blog – I’ve gained 12 lbs since I left my job and yes I know it’s not a lot – but none of my shorts or dress pants fit, like can only get them to my knee, it sucks!

    I’m confident that you’ll be back to fighting form very soon, glad you had the epiphany!!!

    • It’s not a fun feeling at all. I was feeling a bit ashamed and embarassed today on the beach but I know I’m working towards a goal and I have it in my sight!

      I know you can kick your own ass as much as I can kick mine too!

      YOU CAN DO IT!

  8. […] Your clothes don’t lie.  If you can’t fit in to that speedo that you did last summer from too many donuts over the winter or if your jeans fall off you this fall when you put them on for the first time, those are good ways to measure success or fails as well.  They’re not exact, but they should be a good gauge to whether or not you’re succeeding.  Not being able to fit in to my beach volleyball shorts this summer was my eye opener. […]


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