I wrote this post in June 2013, and it was the best thing I ever did. Since opening up about my food issues, it has allowed me to confront them and deal with them. Please read this!
All of my adult life I’ve had serious food issues. I don’t know if I’ve been like this my whole life or what brought it on, but it’s something that I’ve struggled with since at least the age of 18 and something that I still struggle with today at 32 years old.
I’m going to be honest and blunt in this post and I’m going to start with this; Unless you’ve ever had an issue with food, you don’t and won’t understand what it’s like. You can have sympathy for someone or try to relate to someone with a food addiction, but if you’ve never gone face first into a garbage can after a bag of chips you’ve thrown out because you don’t want to eat them anymore but you can’t control yourself, you won’t completely understand.
One of the things that pisses me off most is when people who have never been through try to lecture me about healthy food and ask me questions like “wouldn’t you rather have a salad with chicken?”. No, I wouldn’t! That’s why I just went face first into a garbage can for food. Have you ever gone into the garbage after a salad?
I’ve come to the point that I know I need to dump food out of its bag or box and directly into the garbage can otherwise I will start trying to rationalize that it’s still good because it’s still in the bag or box and it isn’t actually in the garbage can. And honestly, this is just the tip of the iceberg. I hide food. I lie about what I eat sometimes. And man am I ever a gorger. I’ll polish off an entire chocolate cheesecake faster than most people will eat one piece even though I feel like I’m gunna puke.
I’m very well educated on healthy eating and healthy living, so please don’t get me wrong and don’t misunderstand what I’m saying! I WANT to eat clean and healthy every day for both my mind and my body, but for some reason, one that I don’t know or understand, this is the most difficult thing in the world for me to do. I have to fight bad eating habbits every day of my life, and for the most part I have been and I am still successful at overcoming my unhealthy habits and lifestyle. But man, it’s still a struggle.
I’m writing this today because I don’t want to lie about or hide this side of me. I tell all of my clients these stories so they know that I can relate to them and that I understand what they’re going through. I’m writing this to let you know that it is possible to battle bad habits and food addiction and that the I’m proof. I’ve lost over 100 pounds and kept it off. Yes, I still struggle with my eating and my bad habits every day of my life, but it is manageable and I’m honestly the happiest in my life when I’m eating clean every day.
I’m writing this post in hopes that those of you who struggle the same way I do can realize that you can beat it and when you do, it feels damn FUCKING good! . It’s not easy and it takes hard work and effort but I promise you, it’s worth it!